i’m so freakin scared right now. it’s not even funny. :[ i swear i was about to cry. i went to go watch nightmare on elm street with Adam, Calvin, & Bryan. and fuuuuuuuuuk. i freakin screamed alooooot! and i screamed like two minutes into the movie. -_____- i’m a scardycat. :[ then after the movie ended and we exiting the theater, Adam hides in the corner that’s like suuper dark and scares the shizzz out of me and i fell down cause i was that scared. we drove around for a while trying to find the scariest and darkest streets ever to try to scare me some more. some friends i have! haha. justkidding. after they tried to scare me even more, we went to the pavillions parking lot to meet up with Sherman. and freakin Adam & Sherman try to “practice” wrestling or fighting moves on me. haha. and Bryan & Calvin just laugh and watch. but it looked sketchy with 4 tall ass guys and one small ass girl. and i was screaming alot so it made them look bad. Sherman & Adam’s words, “aye stop screaming. you make it look like were trying to rape you or something.” haha. but they deserved it! i loooovee hanging with them when there not trying to make me all scared and what not. i’ve used the word “scared” and “screaming” alot cause it was that bad. i begged them to come over after cause i didn’t want to be alone either. and when there leaving, Adam turns off allll my lights to scare me before they leave. :[ not coooool. and then they try to make me feel better as they start to leave and i’m gonna be home alone. but if i do get scared tonight ima call all their asses up and keep them up with me. >:] and if i know them, they would stay up with me. i hope. haha. love you guys! <3
“Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends. You gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love. You lose love. You realize all long that you’ve been loved. You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups. You have your downs. You see good movies. You see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life. You hate life. In the end you just find yourself happy to be living life, no matter what’s thrown at you.”—(via runiebaby, idareyoutoclickthis)
this is the part when we say were in love and the part where we have our first kiss but this ain’t a movie i know you cant come with me you got your life she better be treatin you right just tell me you dont love me tell me you dont feel the same way that i do tell me i dont make you smile like i do when you walk in the room you’re so hard to let go.
sometimes the hardest thing to do is the right thing to do cause everything happens for a reason.
love, don’t worry.he’s not worth your tears. a guy worth crying over would never make you cry. he’s a dumbass and doesn’t deserve your love. he’s taking you for granted. and even tho it hurts, in time you will heal and you will find someone waaay better. when something bad happens, something good always follows. (: remember that girl. <3
Girl:*Thinks* Oh my God, I hope he doesn't break up with me... I love him so much.
Boy:Baby, are you there?
Girl:Yeah, I'm here. What is so important?
Boy:I'm not sure if I should say it..
Girl:Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Girl:Baby, what are you talking about? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy:Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.
Girl:Why? All of your family lives over here.
Boy:Well, my father is sending me away to a boarding school far away.
Girl:I can't believe this.
Father:(Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERICA! What did I tell you about talking to boys?! Get off the damn phone! (And hangs up)
Boy:Wow, your father sounds really mad.
Girl:You know how he gets, but anyways, I don't want you to go.
Boy:Would you run away with me?
Girl:Baby, you know I would, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!
Boy:*Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..
Girl:*Thinking* I can't believe what's going on.
Boy:I need to give you something tonight, because I am leaving on flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.
Girl:Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.
Boy:Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.
(They meet at a nearby park, they both hug each other. And he gives her a note.)
Boy:Here you go, this is for you. I gotta go.
Girl:*Tear* (Begins to cry.)
Boy:Baby, don't cry, you know I love you... But I have to go.
Girl:Okay (Begins to walk away.)
(They both go back home. And Erica begins to read the letter he gave her)
You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and don't you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the right thing, and you were never there. I didn't think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
( Erica begins to cry, she throws the paper in the garbage & cries for hours. )
... A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely... Then she gets a phone call....
Friend:How are you feeling?
Girl:I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.
Friend:Oh, about that. Ricardo left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...
(She finds a piece of paper in the jacket.)
"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not = will
.... I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me... -Ricardo"
Girl:Oh my God! It's a letter.. Ricardo does love me! He must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!
( Erica turns the TV on. )
"An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80... it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." the Reporter says.
( She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to live for... )
... A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a message. "Its Ricardo, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried. I am staying for good.
went to huntington beach with sarah, bryan, & calvin. (: played volleyball, put some cheerios on bryan’s back to give him a werid disease looking tan. watched bryan and calvin make a fool of themselves playing soccer. haha. looked at sarah and brayn jump into the freezing water. we left a little bit earlier than we expected. but it was still fuuun. got dropped off and waited a couple of hours for my ateh kc, her bf, and bro to come over and we went late night swimming and got some bobaaaa. (: oh man was that fuuuuunn! haha.
went to sixflags with ariana, barry, & raeann. (: i was soooo damn tired from all that walking and waiting in line for the freakin rides. -_____- rode batman, superman, gold rusher, collasus. they wanted to ride X2 and tatsu. but boy was i not doooown. haha. we got in the line for scream and right when it’s about to be our turn, the ride has minor difficulties. eff thaaat. don’t wanna die. so then we ended up leaving and going to golliath. as we were in line moving and what not i sneaked off and ran away cause i was not about to scream my lungs out even though i already have. haha. stupid me didn’t have my phone tho cause it was in a locker. so i waited at the exit for them. next thing i know barry comes out cause apprarantly he didn’t want to wait in line and wanted to do the chivalry thingy. (: haha. he’s sweet. so we walked around, got in line for funnel cakes waiting for ariana and raeann. ended the day eating chocolate and strawberry funnel cakes and camera whoring waiting for the girl’ dad. after we dropped barry home, ariana’s dad let me drive home. (: haha. yup, today was a grrreaaat day. <$
HAVE YOU EVER ——————————————————————————————— Given anyone a bath: i think so. Smoked: possibly. Bungee Jumped: too scared. Gone skinny dipping: heck noo. Eaten a dog: never in my life. Put your tongue on a frozen pole: nope. Loved someone so much it made you cry: who hasn’t? Broken a bone: yeaa. Played truth or dare: everyone does. Been in a physical fight: almost! Been in a police car: nope. Been in a hot tub: all the time. Swam in the ocean: almost drowned. Fallen asleep in school: too scared too.
Ran away: tried too. Broken someone’s heart: didn’t mean too. Cried when someone died: couldn’t stop. Cried in school: oh yeeaa. Fell off your chair: nopee. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: any girl would. Saved AIM/MSN conversation: if it’s cute.
WHAT IS ——————————————————————————————— Your good luck charm: my cross necklace. Best song you ever heard: too many. What’s your room like: share with my mom. Last thing you ate: filipino spaghetti. What kind of shampoo do you use: some kind my mom bought that is aaaamazing! Do you believe in karma: it bites you in the ass. HARD.
HAVE YOU HAD ———————————————————— Chicken pox: of course. Sore Throat: yeeea. Stitches: yuuup. Broken nose: i’d die.
DO YOU —————————————————————— Believe in love at first sight: only in movies. Like picnics: never had one. Like school: only cause of the people. What schools have you gone to: AHS & MHS. Would you eat a live hamster for $1,000,000 dollars: never. Who was the last person that called you: my ateh kc. What makes you laugh the most: my famILY & friends.
LAST PERSON ——————————————— You yelled at: can’t remember. Who broke your heart: this guy. Who is your loudest friend: i have too many.
DO YOU/ARE YOU —————————————————————————————— Do you like filling these out: it kills time. Do you wear contacts or glasses: both. Do you like yourself: sometimes. Do you get along with your family: all the time. Obsessive: depends. Compulsive: maybe. Anorexic: don’t wanna die early.
FINAL QUESTIONS —————————————————————————————- What are you listening to right now: “your love is my drug.” What did you do yesterday: hung out with my wonderful friends. <3 Hate someone in your family: never. What car do you wish you had: Honda Fit. Where do you want to get married: Hawaii or Paris. (:
If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be: attitude. How many remote controls are in your house: too many to count. Are you double jointed: possibly. Last time you took a bath: this morning. The last movie you saw at the cinemas: dear john. Do you like scary or happy movies: scary, if i had a bf. happy, anytime anyday. Black or white: either one. Root Beer or Dr.Pepper: Dr. Pepper. Vanilla or chocolate: either one. Silver or Gold: either one. Diamond or pearl: either one. Sunset or Sunrise: sunset! Sprite or 7up: Sprite.. Cats or dogs: Dogs. Coffee or tea: coffee. Phone or in person: in person. Are you the oldest, middle, youngest or only child: youngest. Indoor or outdoor: either one.
i had sooo much fun today! (: hung out with calvin, bryan, and sherman this morning. went to the mall to eat and get bobaaa then back to my house. but calvin had to leave after the mall. :[ watched the last hour of “saving private ryan”. then went back out to bryan’s house to get his PS3 and then we went to an empty church parking lot so i can drive his hugee ass car. haha. sherman scared the shit of out of us cause he thought he saw bryan’s dad. and if his dad saw anyone else drive his car.. ohhhh maaaan. thank goodness it wasn’t. so then we were gonna go to the santa anita mall parking lot but then bryan started to run out of gas. so went back to his house to drop off his car. after we went to order pizza, and rented a game. went back to my house and started eating and playing. frankie and sarah called so they ended up coming over. when they got to my house we went to get boba AGAIN. (: on the way back frankie and bryan started shooting boba out the car. haha. we were blasting the music and just moving to the beat of the songs and having fun. ashlee called and we ended up picking her up too. passed by a group of kids and started yelling outside the car. haha. man, today was just soo much funn. i’m lucky to have friends like themm. <3
like seriously?!? guys are fucking stupid. they don’t know what they want and they swear they can have anyone they want, when they want. when you have a girlfriend you don’t go to your ex’s house and kiss her and ask for a fucking hickey or a damn bj. like are you seriously FUCKING STUPID?! go jump off a bridge or something. you don’t deserve to have anyone. and you don’t know how much i want to MURDER you. kissing my niece when you have a girlfriend?! your asking for a death wish. stay the fuck away from her. but you know what? karma’s a bitch and it’s gonna come around and bite you in the ass. HARD. so expect it. cause what you’ve done, your just gonna get it even worse.
Spring is in the air! (: my spring break is a little late but now i get to go out and have some funnnn. beach beach beach! (; but my other friends have school. :[ i wish everyone had the same spring breaks. but it’s okay. i’ll make the best of it. today we have a senior scavenger hunt, but i can’t go cause i have practice at church. after this friday i get MY fridays back. yesss! (: cause sunday is our performancee. i hope my plans through out the week, go through. (: and only less than two months till i graduatee. and then it’s summer lovin’. <3 man, this year is just going by soo fast.
Oh how I yearn for your touch I’m so lonely now that you left me If I could run away you know I would And I’m hurtin cause boy I never loved you like I should When your love is lost Your whole worlds thrown off When the one you need don’t need you What do you do, when love is lost?
“At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, & it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, & what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.”
so this guy walks into my class holding a dozen roses and a build-a-bear box, gives it to this girl cause it’s her birthday. she opens the box and it’s a bear dressed in a tux. in the guy’s voice he says. “will you go with me to prom?” isn’t that cuuuuuuteee?! why can’t there be more guys like that. :P
“Around here, however, we don’t look back for very long.We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we’re curious..and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths. "
- Walt Disney; Meet the Robinsons.”—
today was really good. (: i got to hang out with my ateh kc, her boyfriend, and her brother again. boy do i love to spend time with them. they make me happy and i forget all the things that make me sad when i’m alone. we got to go swimming, got some bobaaaaa, watched new moon, and did kareoke. <3 i just wish i was on spring break already. i don’t wanna go to school tomorrow. we have a mock interview and have to wear buisness attire. -_______- FML. i can’t wait to graduate and leave my shitty ass high school.